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 Taken from the list:

13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.

Well the first one is pretty obvious if you know me/read my blog at all.

1) I care way too much what other people think of me.

I do... I care so much and there is no reason for it. I don't think others are better than me, but I don't want them to think that I'm lacking or lesser or just not very much fun. I want them to want to be my friend. I want them all to want to be my friend. I want them to think I'm so great that they tell their friends to be my friend in a domino friendship effect.

2) I'm stubborn. (When people are trying to be nice they call it determined or loyal.)

But the truth is I'm just plain stubborn. I don't like being told what I can't or shouldn't do unless you are a person in actual authority. I really hate being manipulated and if I feel like I'm being herded or pushed in a certain direction I will dig in my heels like a mule and t'aint no moving me.

3) I really don't know myself very well.

I operate almost purely on insight... so a lot of times I know what a person is thinking or feeling based on how they act... but I can miss really obvious things about myself because I normally don't take that much time to self-analyze.... I do almost no introspection.  and this results in blinding insights like "Oh my friends all compliment me all the time! That's why I like them so much." This is not a blinding insight to anyone else... it more like blindingly obvious.

4) I'm really particular.
I try not to be... and being married to Nathan was convenient because he was way pickier than I am- food -wise... but it's kinda ridiculous. Half the reason why I bake so much is because of my strong and particular tastes. I try new things and I've even started to enjoy things that I didn't use to like... but still I have definite preferences... I try not to broadcast them as I don't like offending people or hurting anyone's feelings. And it's not just food. I have the same sorts of preferences for guys, friends, music, movies, books, ect. I just try and keep them to myself and expose myself to more than just what I'd like.

5) I don't mind chaos.

If you saw how many tabs I keep open in a window, the clean clothes strewn all over my bedroom, the state of my computer desk you wouldn't find this very surprising. I'm not organized. I just work around messes and I don't normally care.  This wouldn't be a problem except when other people are exposed to my life for prolonged periods of time and they have to deal with it. Then it's a problem and I feel bad about it.